2/16/25

The Script in Jakarta!

Who would have thought about the idea of going SOLO to a concert? and it’s The Script??

Of course the 16 years-old-me never expected to go on a The Script concert at the age of 27 🤣 sendiri, pula.

The Script!!

Working on a media company was really the best scenario that god addressed me —i had privileges like invited to a special events and also meet my boyfriend 😋. Yes I often went to concerts, but on a work purpose, alias liputan. But not this time.

I went. to The Script’s concert. alone. the experience was really DIFFERENT.

The opening was performed by Hoobastank. Actually i dont really know about their songs (sorry i’m not really into it) except “The Reason”. Ya… siapa sih yang enggak tau lagu satu itu?

Here’s the set list of The Script Jakarta 2025:
  1. You wont feel a thing
  2. Superheroes
  3. Rain
  4. Both ways
  5. Six degree of separation
  6. The man who cant be moved
  7. The last time
  8. Inside out
  9. If you could see me now
  10. Never seen quite like you
  11. Before the worst
  12. Nothing
  13. No good in goodbye
  14. Paint the town green
  15. For the first time
  16. Home is where the hurt is
  17. Breakeven
  18. Hall of fame closing
Thank Gooodddd for the experience i had! 
Maybe Paramore or Greenday concert for the next, eh? 😝

1/16/22

Revealing Myself

My biggest achievement was not coming from my organizational activities, it came from my personal life story. I healed from my heartbreak. A year full of tears, pain, and demotivation. There was a time I feel I'm so messed up then I sought help from a professional, and I did the treatment. I thought the treatment was going well because my friends also helped me through that time. I feel blessed for what happened to me that time and it shaped me to be who I am now; even the better version of me, full of joy, happiness, and more grateful for the life I live. I believe that my life purpose is to become someone who is useful and trustworthy to others.

-fin.

9/2/21

Consciously Conscious

Sadar atas pilihan yang dipilih.

It is okay to be not liked by someone (or even everyone). You don't have to be perfect. All of us are still human beings (and so do you, right?).

It is okay to stay with the people you like instead of staying with the people who like you. Everyone has their territories and decisions (and so do you, right?).

It is okay to be honest with yourself. It is okay to express your deepest feelings, either with anger or crying (or maybe both wkwk). You can sing along to a song you can relate to your feelings too. Everyone has a way to express their feelings.


Everyone will face their problems yet pressure. If you ever feel like you want to quit, just don't. You can take a break, but don't quit.

2/12/21

As a human

As a human we can not choose to have two hands or one mouth or two ears, but what we can learn from them is: every part of them delivers messages within the function of it.

2 mata untuk melihat.
2 telinga untuk mendengar.
1 mulut untuk berucap.

Apa yang kita pandang dari sisi mata tidak harus kita validasi untuk dipercaya ketika kita belum mendengar versi lainnya dari sisi telinga, berlaku sebaliknya. Sedangkan apa yang diucapkan oleh mulut boleh saja berasal hanya dari mata atau apa yang kita lihat, atau telinga atau yang kita dengar, atau saja keduanya, but originally it comes from your mind; the one who took control of what you're gonna say.

1/27/21

Reoccurring and... How?

Personally, I am interested in a life coach service because I just think that I need to face my problems and find a solution to them instead of moving on, but I know I need to seek help.

Here's a little story about me (I don't know, I just want to share this). Around 2019, I sought help from a psychologist in my college. After 2 sessions of counseling, it turned out I was getting better. But lately... I just feel that the problem that was bothering me that day is reoccurring these days. It will ruin my activities; I'm losing focus, demotivated, stressed out. I deeply want to fix this problem and seek help to get solutions to my problem together with me. I know it comes from my mind, myself. But I just don't know how to start it.

I don't know... I just want to share this.

12/26/20

Just in short...

i pretty knew i ever felt this kind of stress when i was stuck at home for the long 3 months straight. i could say this wasnt a kind of depression just bcs i aint feel really sad. i would say this more likely.. like, a confusion that actually coming from myself. my mind. i know. and i'm no longer motivated. at the same time, i do need friends but i dont want to socialize with people. my mind is very complex. i know. hahaha. i hope this was just because i'm fuckin exhausted and i hope i can get myself back to be stable soon. told ya, growin up is fuckin hard. eh, no, not growin up yang sulit, but being always rational itu sulit.. banget. banget banget banget. sebenernya kuncinya satu ya, sadar

sadar lagi sedih, sadar yang disedihin apa.
sadar lagi kesel, sadar yang dikeselin apa.
sadar lagi seneng, sadar seneng karena apa.
sadar lagi capek, sadar yang diperluin apa.

dan... sadar lagi kacau, sadar harus ngadu ke "siapa"

mungkin dari turunan kunci kesadaran itu ada yang lagi kendor. but all i feel right now is i just want to drawn myself in tearsss huh what a pity.
cheer up, Els! enough to feel stuck, lets get back to move because another journey has waitin for you! :)

11/21/20

Being an Intern

Hellooo again Bloggie, it's been a long time not posting any stories padahal aku punya sangat banyak stok cerita! :D

Long story short, as the title obviously, aku keterima jadi Graphic Design Intern di salah satu biro arsitektur di Bintaro, yaitu Studio Sae. It was all of a sudden I read a job vacancy from this bureau, as an intern. After had a short discussion with my friend, I applied this aaand I was accepted. 

All I think to work as a graphic designer is, yaa nggak jauh-jauh dari graphic designing itself dong, typography, layouting, and sense of design. And after going through for one month as an intern, ternyata aku jadi sadar, prospek as a graphic designer atau biro graphic design di Indonesia sepertinya jauh... jauh lebih sulit daripada di biro arsitek. Arsitek, karya dari profesinya sendiri jelas ada hasil, tapi masih dianggap bukan suatu kebutuhan penting di Indonesia. Apa lagi graphic design...

Ini pemikiranku yang masih jadi anak magang, and i'm a freshgrad. Okelah the fact right before aku alhamdulillah udah pernah nyemplung sana sini as a freelancer, but not this one. I'm working on a corporate (even tho its not that big haha), i have a team leader, co workers, and also the principal. Masa internku selesai Januari nanti, dan sebenernya ini udah memasuki masa probation aku, bukan intern lagi (but i like to call myself as 'anak magang' hehehe). 

Well... this feels a little bit hard. Work from home habit, new routinity, forced to be adaptive for my new workplace, demanded to be MORE communicative & be actively active, and so on. BUT i'm the way SUPER happy because... i can say, i finally got a job! After thru umm... about 6 months, maybe. I'm highly expecting this was the best.. best best scenario from Allah for my career journey, insyaAllah!

Ya udah i think that's all for my story about being an intern. Nggak detail-detail banget sih ya tentang internnya, malah curhatannya aja hahaha. Mungkin nanti pas udah agak longgar aku cerita lagi tentang seru-nggak nya jadi graphic designer hijrahan! hehehe. see ya!

8/7/20

My 'M' Cycle

Heeey everyone! How's your quarantine days?
Ya sebenernya udah nggak quarantine amat kali yah, udah mulai new normal di beberapa perkantoran dan sektor kegiatan lainnya, tapi yang ada malah covidnya makin menjadi-jadi di Indonesia.. ditambah lagi ada isu Indonesia bakal resesi segala. Hwadoh, serem-serem sedih ya :(

Been so long ya nggak nulis.. gak tau, rasanya kayak lost interest aja tiba-tiba. Padahal dibilang sibuk pun, nggak sesibuk ngurus Studio TA. Tapi tetep aja gitu rasanya mandek, abis buka blogger, nulis satu-dua kalimat, eh diclose lagi. Lebih mentingin buka candy crush karena aku cinta sekali challenge & competition —even just a game..

Oke! Judulnya spesifik banget haha. Aku mau share sedikit soal siklus mens aku ya.
Setelah 2 tahun belakangan ini aku coba memahami siklus mens aku, ternyata, i become mooore more sensitive both emotionally & physically kalo udah mau jadwalnya mens. Terus tiap longkap sebulan (entah ini sejujurnya aku juga ga tau ngitungnya gimana tapi ini valid banget), aku selalu merasakan perut nyeri, kaki pegel yang parah sampe ngilunya kumat, ga bisa tidur, uringan, nangis. Terus rasanya lebih needy.. definisi kadar temper melancholic naik, choleric down. Asli deh.
Oh, dan uniknya lagi, kalo menjelang waktunya mens, aku jadi mager sholat alias suka ngulur waktu sholat & ngajipun yang tadinya rajin jadi "ntar aja deh" hihihi...

Setelah aku coba browsing, wow, ternyata memang efek dari hormon estrogen di dalam tubuh setiap wanita pasti pasti paaasti berbeda di masing-masing orang. YaAllah ciptaan Allah emang keren banget nggak sih bisa beda-beda gitu? :')
Terus aku pernah nemu contoh lainnya efek si estrogen ini di filmnya Ayudia yang TTM 2 pas hamil Sekala. Rasanya... 10000% can relate!! Memaang sangat sangat benar bahwa itu semua bisa dikendalikan oleh otak/pikiran kita sendiri, tapi, ada beberapa situasi yang bener-bener out of our control no matter how hard we've tried to. Misal sebelumnya nggak pernah nangis, tiba-tiba ketemu temen bisa byuuurrr kejer tuh air mata yang kalo ditanya ya jawabnya gatau-kenapa-pengen-aja. Hahaha gak gak. Tapi asliii deh masyaAllah tabarakallah ini tuh udah kuasa illahi, udah jadi fitrahnya para kaum hawa, yang membedakan kita dengan kaum adam. *sound effect: cling*
EH TAPI bukan berarti bisa rewel sama pasangan dan minta dimanjain ya!!!!! plisss ladies jangan sampe lo rewel dikit alesannya lagi PMS, bocah banget lo asli kalo sampe iya. Inget, mengutamakan rasionalitas pikiran lo itu yang penting!!


Back again. Aku pun nyoba untuk iseng ngobrol soal urusan wanita ini sama temenku, terus dia punya gejala yang sama sama aku apalagi urusan ibadah! Aku pikir kan gak normal ya, masa iya sih mau menjelang mens kok ada orang jadi mager ibadah gitu kan. Ga taunya, ya emang bener ada. Aku dan temenku ini contohnya. Tau kenapa sebabnya?

Sebabnya adalah, usut diusut godaan syaiton kalo menjelang waktunya para wanita datang bulan memang LEEEEBIH besar dibanding sebelum-sebelumnya. Maka dari itu, kalo pas kita dapet, sebagai muslimah yang baik, dianjurkan untuk tetep perbanyak istighfar, wirid, dsb untuk keep in track iman kita gituu. Nggak ngasih kendor lah yah bahasa sekarangnya mah. Btw maaf ya, aku lupa banget haditsnya, tapi aku pernah baca.. mungkin nanti kalo udah nemu lagi aku edit post ini! :)

Sepertinya sekian dulu sharing dari aku kali ini hehe. Semoga aku bisa tetep suka nulis sampe aku tua nanti, semoga jodoh dunia akhiratku nanti bisa saling mendukung setiap saat, saling menghargai struggle masing-masing di masa lalu, saling menggunakan pikiran untuk berdiskusi, dan yang paling penting:
saling membantu dalam kebaikan dan meningkatkan ibadah kita sama Allah. Kalo ditulis bakal kebanyakan, beda post aja ini mah yah!

Aamiin..
Have a nice day, temen-temen! ^^