i pretty knew i ever felt this kind of stress when i was stuck at home for the long 3 months straight. i could say this wasnt a kind of depression just bcs i aint feel really sad. i would say this more likely.. like, a confusion that actually coming from myself. my mind. i know. and i'm no longer motivated. at the same time, i do need friends but i dont want to socialize with people. my mind is very complex. i know. hahaha. i hope this was just because i'm fuckin exhausted and i hope i can get myself back to be stable soon. told ya, growin up is fuckin hard. eh, no, not growin up yang sulit, but being always rational itu sulit.. banget. banget banget banget. sebenernya kuncinya satu ya, sadar.
sadar lagi sedih, sadar yang disedihin apa.
sadar lagi kesel, sadar yang dikeselin apa.
sadar lagi seneng, sadar seneng karena apa.
sadar lagi capek, sadar yang diperluin apa.
dan... sadar lagi kacau, sadar harus ngadu ke "siapa"
mungkin dari turunan kunci kesadaran itu ada yang lagi kendor. but all i feel right now is i just want to drawn myself in tearsss huh what a pity.
cheer up, Els! enough to feel stuck, lets get back to move because another journey has waitin for you! :)
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